Author: Jordan

Well, the past couple of days have been hard to deal with. Friday I spent the better half of the day lounging around the pool with my friend Amy.

Unfortunately for me, I forgot to wear suntan lotion. The end result was me looking like a fresh and ripe tomato. Though the first night was the worst night. My legs were so burnt that when I put on my pants, you could feel the heat radiating off of them. My upper chest and shoulders were also pretty bad, but my legs have been the most sensitive. I’ve ended up with a nice tan, but next time I’ll stick to wearing some suntan lotion instead.

Saturday was probably the worst day thus far. I managed to break down over a cheeseburger, in the shower, watching My Super Ex-Girlfriend, and listening to Rise Against. All within before 7pm. I finally got an email from Mark, and I couldn’t believe how much it calmed me down and helped me. I was able to concentrate on something more than 10 minutes without worrying what was going on with my life and him.

Today has been okay so far. I really want to talk to Mark, but I’m just scared to call him. I sent him a couple of emails just randomly chattering to him, and then asking to talk to him. I hate that I keep pestering him, but I just honestly miss him. It’s been a week since I last saw him, and despite what went down the other night, I do want to see him.

To bide the time today, I started working on a redesign for Holdfire Network. It’s looking pretty good so far, and definitely a step up from the current design. I’m also adding in a few extra features to it, so hopefully that will bring in some extra clients.

Back to working… and hoping I’ll get to see him tonight.

I have no motivation to really do anything right now. Mark broke up with me last night. So right now I’m just beside myself not really knowing what I want anymore. I really just lost half of myself last night.

Four days later and you’d think that I’d be feeling somewhat better, or that my cold would’ve gotten better. Wrong! After losing my voice on Saturday, I still had a sore throat to deal with on Sunday, which later on turned into wheezy breathing, and hacking. Monday was pretty much the day of death, since I couldn’t sit sit (my body ached), my head felt like it was going to explode, and I coughed up a few pieces of my lungs.

All that aside I finally managed to get the latest Harry Potter book yesterday and spent the whole day (3pm and after) reading it. I tried to stop, I really did, but I just did not want to go to sleep without finishing the book. So at 2am I ended up calling it quits and went to sleep. Not bad considering that I take maybe a few breaks that knocked off 2 hours there. All I have to say about the book is I will be ripping out the epilogue to blow my snotty nose on.

This entire week however, I am making it my duty to swim from 11:30-1pm. Not only will it just help me feel better by swimming some laps, but I’ll get a decent tan. Monday was some pinkness on my chest, shoulders, face and back. Though my arms always take to the sun really well. They’re a golden brown/tan right now, so I guess that’s a start 😛

I’ve been trying to stay up today, but I’ve felt so useless and exhausted that I have been sleeping on and off. I think I may have to cave in and actually take some medicine. I have this belief that unless I am absolutely dying and in the hospital, I do not take medicine other than aspirin. Who knows why, but it’s been like that for a few years now.

*runs off to try to feel accomplished* Oh and day 2 of no Mark 🙁 Only 4 more days to go.

For the past two and a half days, I’ve had a rather annoying sore throat. I’ve been dealing with it by eating Halls cherry lozenges one right after the other, in hopes of that numbing the feeling of a huge ball in my throat. This morning I woke up only to find out that I lost my voice. I tried to answer my sister’s question by saying “No, it wasn’t me.” Yet nothing came out. It was pretty strange too, because I’ve never had an issue with losing my voice because of a sore throat/being sick.

I’m just hoping that it doesn’t worsen over the next few days. I haven’t had any fevers (though yesterday I felt uber hot–temperature was a normal 98.7F, though I’m usually only 97.8F), though the body aches have been plentiful at night and in the morning. Hopefully with the medicine I’m taking today, I can get rid of it.

I really want to just spend time with Mark, since he’s leaving me on Monday to go up to Michigan. Nearly a week of him being up there, so I really don’t know how to function. After last weekend of seeing him every day for basically six days, and barely any this week, and now nothing next week… I have no idea how to cope. I’m sure I’ll go crazy after the 2nd day of him being up there, because he’s really my lifeline.

On that note, I must clean up my room. My parents are throwing my sister her thirteenth birthday party today, so my room has to look presentable. Oh the woes of moving back in with your parents after 2 years of being on your own. *sighs*

I’ve abandoned my poor poor website. Sadly I can’t really say I’ve been up to much other then working on projectcloverfield.com and mywhmcs.com. This past weekend I had the house all to myself, unless you don’t include Mark.

It was just nice not having to hear any yelling, demands, or hell, anyone other than myself, the tv, and Mark. Had a lovely time and would love to be able to do this again, though the chances of that happening again are quite slim. It’s okay though, I savored it so maybe I can relish on it at a later date.

However the biggest news I’ve yet to share is that I managed to land a job as a freelancer for a local webdesign firm. Needless to say I am ridiculously excited to start working on some projects (I believe I’ll get to find out some tomorrow morning when I go in.) The pay is pretty great, as well as the experience with them. Eventually they’d like to bring me on as full-time but for the time being I’m just being contracted for work.