This past week has been a complete struggle for me. No, scratch that, this entire month has. I’ve become such a hermit crab it’s disgusting. But I’ve decided that this is just hurting me too much, and that nothing is going to change. Why should I wait around for someone that doesn’t give a shit about me anymore, or rather that’s the impression that he gives me. I know it sucks, it really does, but this is my life, and I want to be happy.
So this weekend was pretty painful, more emotional than anything else, but just realizing the decision I was going to make. Tomorrow my classes start, and from Monday thru Thursday I’ll be trying to focus a lot of my attention on that.
I just hope that I can really stick to my guns and try to stay strong. I really just want to find someone to hang out with, make me happy again. I don’t care if it’s just a friend, that’s all I want right now.