Author: Cupcakey

Well, if you’re seeing this entry, that means that the DNS propagated (it did for me, thanks to Mark reminding about cmd > ipconfig /flushdns !) and you’re now viewing atourworst.org on my new server, Reeses. Yes, yes I know, what an awesome server name.

In other news, well, there really is no other news… o.O

I’m so sad. After 175+ days of my server being up with no downtime whatsoever, I had to perform a graceful reboot. Httpd was down, and server load went nuts. I’m quite sad. But that’s okay, I’m in the process of backing up all files on that server, to prepare for a server move. Woohoo!

Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy working for Caribou Coffee but I’m just becoming so bored with the job. I feel like every day is the same. It’s like Groundhog Day only worse–customers that are picky about the low-fat, sugar-free syrup lattes or their soy milk cappuccino that doesn’t get the right amount of froth because soy milk doesn’t froth right…

Part of me wishes that Best Buy had worked out, but it didn’t, so now I’m playing the waiting game. I’ve got a full month until I can re-apply. I won’t be working at the ones within 10 miles of me, because my store had people from the other stores, and I’d rather not endure the drama being circulated.

The only reason why I’m complaining about work is that again, I’m not getting the hours that I had discussed with my new store manager. She was an MIT at my other store, and knew that I wanted at maximum of 40 hours a week, with the minimum being 35-38 hours. I’ve yet to see that, though the other full-timer has gotten 39.50 one week and 40 another. The most I’ve seen has been 32.50 since she asked me. I’m also very upset/annoyed about my payrate versus other shift supervisors. I worked for Caribou back in 04/05, and was a Shift Supervisor then. I also have my Illinois Food Sanitation License, which is a huge plus in this retail area. Yet I found out that someone that’s two years younger with 1/4 of the experience/qualifications that I have is making the same.

So not only will I discuss the hours, I am going to ask for a raise to compensate for my experience and qualifications that I was denied during my rehire. If not, then I am definitely going to look into another job, and leave this one. Obviously I won’t leave this job until I have one under my belt for a few months, but I just need something that pays better and will give me the hours I want.

I’ve been spending more money then I’d like to right now. My money right now, is mainly going towards paying for my car’s transmission I had fixed not too long ago. But in-between I’ve need bras, undies, socks, jeans, and a few other necessities that I ended up buying for myself. Granted, a few things I didn’t need but for the most part, everything I got I use nearly ever day. But I still can’t help but feel ridiculously guilty about it. Oh well, I guess that’s how it goes.

Other then working straight for the past seven days, I haven’t been up to too much lately. I’ve been working behind the scenes for Holdfire Network as well as my other Chicago Hardcore project, which I kind of only messed around for a few days, but will be working on more tonight, pending I don’t go out with Mark (and I hope I don’t get stuck working on it :).

I’ve also been getting together odds and ends of mine, mainly clothes, to put on ebay as I don’t need them. I know for a fact that I can get rid of them on ebay. I’m also looking into starting up a Sticker/Decal website. Possibly printing stickers for bands/etc, and creating decals on an order basis, and putting some up one bay. It’s definitely a great business to look into, and I think it’d be fun, so that’s one thing I’m highly considering. Looking into getting a Xyron 900 to tinker with and to get started with small projects. We’ll see how this goes!

I haven’t really talked too much about my personal life lately, and I think maybe it is time to write about it. I always seem to be able to say what I want when I’m writing an entry, but when I want to say this to Mark, I can never seem to find the courage to tell him how I feel. I know part of the reason I can’t say/talk to this to him is because I don’t have the courage to do so, but more of it is because I don’t want to scare him.

Sometimes I know that I can be pretty demanding, especially when it comes to me liking someone (eg: Mark.) My last relationship, I lived with the guy for a year and some odd months. Because of that there’s a lot of little things I expect, because I’m just used to it. I’m not saying I’m comparing Mark to someone I’ve dated before, but just rather what I want.

For the past few days I’ve really wanted to know about how he feels about where “we’re” going. I want to know if we’ll be exclusive to each other only. That’s what I want, because I feel like I’m ready to get into a relationship [with him.] I just don’t want to say something, and have it all crumble around me. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love how things are between us right now, and I hate feeling like that’s not enough, because it is enough… But… I do want more. I feel like I’m going to sound so crazy, but I want to know that I’m his only, and for him to know he’s my only.

Since I can’t seem to talk to this to him in person nor through instant messenger, I might just e-mail him. I feel ridiculous right now, because my mind is swimming with so much I want to say to him, I’m just so scared that I’m going to screw it up by telling him how I feel. That it’s going to scare him away, and we’ll talk less, see each other less, because I’m getting too close.

On a different note, I really love New Found Glory‘s latest album, Oxygen. I have a few favorite tracks: Make Your Move, Oxygen, and On My Mind.

A few snippets I really enjoy:

New Found Glory – On My Mind
But the time we spent was so short
Can’t believe it’s time to go again
You’re always on my mind, all the time
On my mind, believe it

New Found Glory – Too Good To Be
You have my heart in your hands
You have my heart so don’t, don’t let it go
Check my pressure
Patch me up right, you’re too good to be

Working for a coffee company, Caribou Coffee has it’s ups and its downs. Some days have aren’t so balanced with a lot more “downs” then anything else. Today had a few more of those then I like dealing with. Normally I’m fine with customers ordering ala Starbucks. I’ve become accustomed to hearing this during each of my shifts, so it doesn’t annoy me as much as it used to.

Hell, I’m used to a lot of references to Starbucks whenever customers are in. Whether it’s a slip-up of what size they want (we don’t use the Italian sizing, we use the standard Americanized: Small, Medium, and Large as opposed to Tall, Grande, and Venti.) So I don’t generally get annoyed (though I do get annoyed when customers go “Oh, “SB” you know, the other *wink* place” or something to that extent.

Oh, that’s a lie. Lately the one thing that will drive me absolutely insane, and will make me smile at you while I’m wishing you a slow and painful death, is if you order a macchiato, especially if you put “caramel” before it. Please, understand that just because one corporation makes one drink, that another entirely different (though same) corporation might not make it the same. I don’t go into Burger King expecting them to give me a Big Mac (not that I’d ever order a Big Mac anyway.)

Our macchiatos are espresso shots (2 for small, 3 for medium, and 4 for large) with two to three dollops of froth on top, and nothing else. We do not add milk, flavoring, or whipped cream. So please, for the love of god, do not order a caramel macchiato and except to get a Vanilla latte with steamed milk, whipped cream and caramel drizzle.

On Tuesday of last week, I had a young girl and her father come into the store, and since I was on register, I took their order. She didn’t look at the menu and ordered a caramel macchiato. I held in my sigh, and explained to her that our macchiatos are just straight espresso with dollops of froth. She said “Yeah, I’ve had that before, that’s what I want.” So I said I just nodded and put their order through. She gets her “caramel macchiato” and I knew she was going to complain about it. Sure enough, she says “It’s too strong, and this is not what I ordered.” Well, I took the time to explain what the drink was, it most definitely is what you ordered, didn’t say that’s what you expected. So I explained to her again the difference between our drinks and Starbucks, and then realize that she wanted a Caramel Hi-Rise. Though not the same to the SB Macchiato, as theirs is milk, vanilla, espresso shots poured through the milk, with whipped cream and caramel drizzle on top.

Good lord, I just blogged about work. Either I just embarked on a new journey, or dug myself a grave. I guess the comments will decide my faint.